Journal Entry

Dear Journal,

It was a good day in which i had spent some time with my son,near the beach in Carmel Beach.I had taken a sip from my champagne as i gaze at the beach.The Dogs chasing each other near the ocean. Still i cant stop smiling at my wife,Marsha, as she plays around with Stephen.As the sun sets,i let the small wind blow in face,relieveing my self that i had gotten through everthing,takeing a big rest from life.I finally realize that after what i have een through,i had done alot in my life,gone through suffering,but in the end,i was happy to find the women i love,and that loves me,and a son that is growing up perfectly,It seems like for the rest of y life,my days wont be so tough from when i was back from my childhood.And i promise to my son to treat him and love him in anyway i can,Because i dont want him to go through what i did.
-Dave Pelzer

EMPATHY

There was a day where it was so horrible that its too hard to remember that day.
I was at Mother's house( i call her The Mother),and we were home alone.As always,i was in the garage bitter and alone feeling very cold,and hungry.I find leftover or crumbs from the food Mother has eaten.I cuddle myself because i have no warmth but my self in my own arms.All the mother does is treat me like ''shit''.At least thats what i think.I can only imaginge how worse this is then how she treated my other brothers.When she speaks to me,she calles me It.And when she asks me to speak, i am only to allowed to respond by saying ,''No Ma'am'' or ''Yes Ma'am''.
Many times she really gets to me,and i scream in my head ,''why does this happen to me!?'' What do i to deserve this!!''Since i am the youngest,(beside my little sibling) I Feel like i dont want to live in this world.BUt i keep myself because i can sometimes overpower The Mother.

If I Can Remember To Know This Will Conquer Me....

The lyric i chose goes by,

''If i can remember to know this will conquer me,

If i can just walk alone and try to escape,into me.''

these lyrics are a song called Remember-by Disturbed.



These lyrics have been meaningful to me because it really relates to me.
Since i heard this song,it made me realize how much I have been through back in my past.
It showed me how some things from my past affected me me now in the future.
It helped me realize how some things that i regret had hurt me,
Many things i regret had caused pain in my mind,to let it always be thinking about,how many things i regret n my past had affected me emotionally.
This song has helped me alot in the present.
Because everytime i get a memory i get that i regret, I would listen to this song,and think about it alot.
And this is one of my Favorite songs.

First post Assingment.

One book i have read was called Barbarian.The book is from a series called Sons Of the Dark. The story takes place in Los Angeles and a another realm called NEFUNDUS.IN many parts of the book, i Like how some of the characters act with each other. The main Characters are named Obie,Berto,and Kyle. What i like about the Character is that he is a musician.
One highlight i chose was that the characters,Obie,is not fomr earth,he is from the other realm called Nefundus.SO since he is very differnt then being human,he has mystical powers,that is able to turn to shadow(for example if he was near a wal,he can camoflauge like it,like being invisible.) So he lets no one see because he is being chased by some Bounty Hunters,who captured anyone from nefundus that had escaped to earth.SO he tries to keep a low profile by trying to fit in as a real human in earth.